The Night of Pan

"The Night of Pan is the mystical state which is experienced during the crossing of the Abyss in the Crowlean system of magick." -Brian Butler

It was made in only 2 days in L.A. and inspired from Grandmother stories involving Paradise Lost. It is a bit of deja vu for me since I have written a story similar to this, but all the more encouraging for me to see this movie immediately. Vincent Gallo is in the cast... I love him, he is terrifying and super strange.

We have liftoff.

Vincent Fournier Space Project

What's a girl to do?

I love this...



It reminds me of one of my favorite music videos of all time.

My mother calls me "Bunny" and it wasn't until I grew older that I understood how sweet it was for her to be calling me that.



We walked arm in arm
But I didn't feel his touch
A desire I'd first tried to hide,
That tingling inside was gone
And when he asked me:
'do you still love me?'
I had to look away
I didn't want to tell him
That my heart grows colder with each day

When you love so long
That the thrill is gone
And your kisses at night
Are replaced with tears
And when your dreams are on
A train to train wreck town
Then I ask you now, what's a girl to do?

"They would bury the 2 deep in the forest, naked, like savages"

San Francisco in 100 years...

How shall the new environment be programmed? It all happened so slowly that most men failed to realize that anything had happened at all.

I'm a Sioux Falls Girl

...and I definitely love Siouxsie and the Banshees.

Confuscius has a puzzling grace






Lucky girl, she was friends with my high school crush. Sometimes I can still be a little Rotten.

Attention Deficit Disorder

"Everyone here will die in 100 years
Voluntary or not
It's not right to settle-
Fuck no! Don't conform"....////so live your life!

Sometimes you can't hide from it.





I'm 21, living in San Francisco, and I still haven't gone to the Mint for karaoke!! Everyone knows that's my talent!




Why, oh my, curiosity killed the pussy cat.

Can't. Do. Essays.
Must.
Do.
Leisure.

My New Toy

I recently received a lovely Golden Half camera from my sweet, little mum. The shop in Noe Valley that she works at, Wink, sells thousands of adorable gibbets including little My Neighbor, Totoro toys, cute notebooks, rings, and books about useless Japanese inventions (really funny, she gave me that as a little gift as well.) Having a mother who works in the retail industry and receives discounts certainly has its benefits.
Anyways, I want to continue discussing this nifty Golden Half camera. 35 mm, when you develop the film there are 2 photos together instead one, because only half the frame is used when you take the picture. So, if you want, you can take pictures in matching intervals; each set of 2 can have a theme. Or not. I am sure I will fail to keep a theme going, I'm not on that photographic level yet. There is also a hotshoe input gadget so that you can add a flash, if desired! It weighs nearly nothing. I use 400 film.
Here are some of the fruits of Golden Half's labor: