Ghostly?

2009 Oliver Theyskens featuring Lily Donaldson. It looks like my mum's mum's wedding dress from her first/second marriage (out of 5). Her ceremony was in Paris, but then Nazi's invaded and she escaped on a motorcycle with some other dude that she would end up marrying, too. R.I.P. beautiful mind. She also was a model in Paris for designers like Balenciaga and Rochas (the originals) and started the whole trend of dragging a fur coat on the runway, though that got her in a bitchload of trouble. I mention her modeling because Theyskens also designed for house of Rochas, remember??

Nina Ricci 2008 with Oliver Theyskens. Olga Sheerer?

With the continuation of losing Jay

my second favorite song ironically reflects my mood today. Maybe it's a sign from his ghost!
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Disclaimer: When I say this song is a reflection of my mood, I do not mean to say that I want anyone dead. Gracias.

Actually, none of the actual lyrics are a reflection of me, at all, just know this now. Gracias dos.

Time will heal the wounds but I
will kill you

Slowly
fading all away

Hear
the voices cry and watch
the feelings die

Slowly
fading all away

Jay Reatard: 1980-2010

R.I.P.; The punk rocker from Memphis, TN.
Why do kids somehow still think drugs are going to make things more fun? Reatards!

Sorry for getting mad when you cancelled that show in Paris an hour before you were set onstage and then I chose to be immature and deleted all your music off my iTunes...I have since downloaded all of them again.
M brother saw Jay Reatard live in Santa Cruz 2 years ago and hated it, said it was to screechy, intoxicated, and chaotic. Thus, I would have thoroughly enjoyed him live.


One of my 2 favorite JRtard songs, Nightmares. This is the clearest version I could find on hand.

Seems that my dreams only come true
When my dreams aren't about you
Nightmares are all you bring to me

I'll keep searching for you



We'll see him in our dreams!

25(ish) Best Films of the Decade

1. Snatch- Directed by Guy Ritchie. What is there to say except it was a good film to kick off the decade. D' yuh guyz lake dehgs? 2000
2. Almost Famous- Directed by Cameron Crowe. Preaching Band-Aids. 2000
3. Ocean's 11- Directed by Steven Soderbergh. Every A-lister available appeared onscreen for this. 2001
4. Blow (no not the porno, but the Johnny Depp version thank you very much) - Directed by Ted Demme, his last film. "Danbury wasn't a prison, it was a crime school. I went in with a Bachelor of marijuana, came out with a Doctorate of cocaine." 2001
5. Vanilla Sky- Directed by Cameron Crowe. Mindfucking. 2001
6. The Ring- Directed by Gore Verbinski, a remake of Ringu. Parents, don't hit your kids, Samara will get you back. Just sayin'. She never sleeps! 2002
7. Old Boy- Directed by Park Chan-wook. One of the craziest movies, along with Suicide Club (2001, I'll throw that movie on the list as well), that I have ever seen! It is apart of the Vengeance Trilogy... all are must-sees, but remember that you need to have a strong stomach. TIED WITH Mystic River- Directed by my guy Clint Eastwood. Pretty grave subject matter. 2003
8. Kill Bill 1 & 2- Directed by Quentin Tarantino. "I'm Buck, and I'm here to fuck." 2003-04
9. The Saddest Music in the World-Directed by Guy Maddin. "No one can beat the Siamese when it comes to dignity, cats, or twins." and That glass leg!! 2003

10. Goodbye, Lenin!- Directed by Wolfgang Becker. The wonders of the Berlin Wall.I LOVE THIS FILM. 2003
11. Big Fish- Directed by Tim Burton. Ewan McGreggor, 'nough said. 2003

12. The Royal Tenenbaums, 2001, ("Well I just want to die") TIED WITH The Life Aquatic, 2004 ("I think I'd be into her if she wasn't a bull dyke)- both directed by Wes Anderson.

13. Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind-Directed by Michel Gondry. This movie's bomb, I'm sorry if it is too scenester for some people.2004 Everyone nailed it.
14. I <3 Huckabees- Directed David O. Russell. "There is no remainder in the mathematics of infinity." Lily Tomlin completely flipped a bitch.2004
15. V for Vendetta- Directed by James McTeigue. "Remember, remember, the 5th of November"2005
16. Brick- Directed by Rian Johnson. "I've got knives in my eyes, I'm going home sick." 2005.

17. History of Violence (2005, David Cronenberg) TIED WITH Eastern Promises (2007, latter director mentioned). FUCKING VIGGO! He is an excellent gang member!
18. Wristcutters: A Love Story- Directed by Goran Dukic. " I was missing Desiree." If you love Tom Waits, BUY THIS FILM. 2006
19.Tekkon Kinrkeet- Directed by Michael Arias and animated by Studio 4°C. Yeah, anime can scare the shit out of certain older folks, but this film is tres jolie. 2006
20. Science of Sleep (Le science des reves)- Directed by Michel Gondry. "I'm exhausted, I think I'll wake up now." aaand "Will you marry me when you are seventy? You'd have nothing to lose. " aaaaand "I never get the one I like, anways" I am watching this film right now! 2006

21. Little Miss Sunshine- Directed by Jonathan Dayton, Valerie Faris. Give me liberty or give me OLIVE. Can't touch this. 2006.
22. Superbad (2007, Greg Mottola) & Pineapple Express (2008, David Gordon Green). Both Seth Rogen, improvised, sadistic, absurd comedies of the beginning of the century. "I have a wife, she's getting out of jail soon, I want to fuck her- I want to have sex with her, I DON'T want to wake up murdered tomorrow!" et "The Iron Chef of Pounding Vag!"
23. The Assassination of Jesse James by the Cowardly Robert Ford- Directed by Andrew Dominik. Nailed it.
24.Let the Right One In- Directed by Tomas Alfredson. Those Swedes, they can be pretty twisted, eh? FACT: This truly is the only historically riveting vampire film EVER. 2008.

25. Burn After Reading (2008, the Coen Bros) & There Will Be Blood (2008, Paul Thomas Anderson). BOTH OUTSTANDING! Brad Pitt proves himself in actual talent instead of beauty and Daniel Day Lewis shows the world that you can't top his performance. DDL, call me dude!

Mary's top 50 favorite songs of the decade!

Choosing these songs have been quite distressful, music is really I have to live for nowadays, so I hope I didn't make too many mistakes. Unfortunately, not many great punk songs were created in the past decade, so I went for more Top of the Pops, so to speak. Please don't punish me if I fucked up on my choices!

The "*" means especially loved, or applies to my life, or both. Just take notice at the * songs.
*1. Blink 182- I Miss you ... I would like to dedicate this song to SARAH AND ASHLEY; you are FOREVER in my heart and I miss you.
"Hello there the angel from my nightmare,The shadow in backround of the morgue,The unsespecting victim of darkness in the valley,We can live like Jack and Sally if we want, where you can always find me, and we'll have Halloween on Christmas"
2. Outkast- Hey Ya! (2003)..."1,2,3, UHH!"
3. The Hives- See Through Head(2000)..."You always end up losing 'cause you got a see-through head"
4. Mya- My Love is Like Whoa(2003)"My love is like (whoa)My kiss is like (whoa)My touch is like (whoa)My sex is like (whoa)My ass is like (whoa) My body's like(whoa)"
5.The Strokes- Hard To Explain(2001)"Well I'm too young, and they're too old, the joke is on you, this place is a zoo, you're right it's true."
6. The Hives- A.K.A. Idiot (2000) "Put up with being laughed at, cause I put up with being me, And then on artificial someone says I'm the i-d-i-o-t."
7. Justin Timberlake- Sexy Back (2007)"Dirrrty baabe, you see the shackles? Baby, I'm your slave, I'll let you whip me if I misbehave, It's just that no one makes me feel this way"
*8. The Distillers- Oh Serena(2000)"Well they all have scars on their eyes, its true, night and day its like a haunted replay, I know it girl i'll pray for you, just remember its not stronger than you."
*9. The Strokes- 12:51(2003)"Talk to me now that I'm older"
10. Animal Collective- Summertime Clothes(2009) "My bones have to move and my skin's gotta breathe, you pick up the phone, and I'm so relieved,you slide down your stairs to the heated street, and the sun has left us with slippery feet"
*11. Atlas Sound feat. Panda Bear- Walkabout (2009) "What did you want to be, what did you want to see when you...grew up?"
12. Boris- Pink (2005)"What color would I use to paint all over, to open your eyes, in a line, trying to kill off the dizziness, in an agony, trying to make the reason,in a line, without averting the eyes, as always"
13. No Doubt- Bathwater (2000) "So why do we choose the boys that are naughty, I don't fit in so why do you want me?"
*14. The Strokes- Reptilia (2003)"Yeah, the night's not over, you're not trying hard enough"
15. Britney Spears- Toxic(2003) For: SARAH MOUSSAVI"There's no escape, I can't wait, I need a hit."
16. Dr. Dre feat Eminem- Forgot About Dre (2001)"I told 'em all, all them little gangstas, who you think helped mold 'em all,now you wanna run around and talk about guns, like I ain't got none, what you think I sold 'em all?"
17. Franz Ferdinand-Take Me Out(2004)"So if you're lonely, you know I'm here waiting for you."
18. Radiohead- 15 Step(2007) "You used to be alright...What happened? Did the cat get your tongue?"
*19. Atlas Sound- Shelia(2009) "We'll die alone, together..."
20. Albert Hammond, Jr.- In Transit(2006) "I'm not going to change, 'til I want to..."
21. The Strokes- Someday(2001)"You say you wanna stand by my side, darling your head's not right"
22. Shakira- Hips Don't Lie (2006)"I never really knew she could dance like that. "
*23. Plot to Blow Up The Eiffel Tower- One Stab Deserves Another(2002?) "I wish I could protect you from the bats that live in her heart, but we all find out for ourselves...I just want to forget!"
24. Blood Brothers- Trash Flavored Trash(2004) "I told a widow that she was beautiful, when half of her smile was missing"
25. Blood Brothers- Love Rhyms with Hideous Car Wreck(2004)" You met Jane four years ago today, dancing at some vomit-stained frat party, her newspaper gown, flashing headline brown, her violent gypsy dance, her tired underpants.."
26. No Doubt- It's My Life(2003) "Caught in the crowd, it never ends..".
*27. The White Stripes- Apple Blossom(2000) "All the people you tell your problems to, they don't really care for you."
28. Animal Collective- My Girls(2009) "There isn't much that I feel I need, a solid soul and the blood I bleed."
29. The White Stripes- Blue Orchid (2005)"...So I gave you the truth from showing up, how dare you, how old are you now anyway?"
30. Camera Obscura- Lloyd, I'm Ready to be Heartbroken (2006)"Hey Lloyd I'm ready to be heartbroken, I can't see further than my own nose at this moment"
31. Hakan Hellstrom- Ramlar(2000)"Och det är lång väg ner, och jag skulle aldrig ramla mer"
*32. Hakan Hellstrom- Kom Igen Lena!(2000) "Elvis boys that throw cellies in the air"
33. Art Brut- Bad Weekend(2005) "Popular culture no longer applies to me."
34. The Libertines- Up The Bracket(2004) "You see these 2 cold fingers? These crooked fingers I show you a way to mean no"
35. Babyshambles- Fuck Forever(2005)"I can't tell between death and glory? Happy endings, no, they never bored me."
36. Radiohead- 2+2=5 (2003) "It's the devil's way now, there is no way out, you can SCREAM and you can shout, it is too late now"
*37. Yeah Yeahs Yeahs- Kiss Kiss(2007) "I dropped my musings out of site, I drank until the water dried, it's all cute 'til someone dies."
38. Yeah Yeah Yeahs- Pin(2004) "I like to sleep with him, pushing in the pin."
*39. Yeah Yeah Yeahs- Y- Control(2004)"Under the gun gun gun, and I believe them all"
40. Desaparacedos- Manana(2002)" We will learn, we will love, we will work, to change each other, we will spread, we will cover the earth, like air and water (Water! Water!...Change each other)"
*41. Deerhunter- Never Stops (2008) "Haunts my days."
42. Kanye West- Can't Tell Me Nothing(2007) "I feel the pressure, under more scrutiny, and what I do? Act more stupidly."
*43. The Stills- Yesterday Never Tomorrows'(2003) "The dark winter snows bright, please stay here tonight, walk on my face straight through my pillow"
*44. Liars- Plaster Casts of Everything(2007) "You say lets ride this way..."
45. HEALTH- Nice Girls(2009)"...Your eyes, your lips...."( this song kills me )
46. D-12- Purple Pills(2005)"I take a couple uppers, I take a couple downers, but nothing compares to these blue and yellow purple pills."
47. Incubus- Megalomaniac(2003) "You're no Jesus, yeah you're no fucking Elvis!"
*48.Rihanna- Disturbia (2008) "It's a thief in the night to come and grab you, it can creep up inside you and consume you, a disease of the mind, it can control you, it's too close for comfort"
49. The Killers- Mister Brightside (2004) It started out with a kiss, How did it end up like this? It was only a kiss...it was only a kiss.
50. Weezer- Photograph (2001) For Ash =)
"If you need it, you should show it
'Cause you might play so monastic that you blow it
'Cause everybody wants some hope
Something they can barely know"

Obviously, Doctor, you've never been a 13-year-old girl.

Robin and I watched Virgin Suicides last night. I watched that movie over and over and over when I was 12 and 13. I thought the dialogue was wonderful and the music, by Air, was tremendous. I thought everything was a drag back then too, so I always saw myself as Cecilia...I was kind of dramatic. Also, the neighborhood was EXACTLY like the neighborhood I lived in, in Cincinnati, Ohio. My opinion has stayed the same, I still enjoy it, but after watching it, I still get a bit mopey. At least I don't relate myself to one of the girls, anymore, like Mary or Lux. So was Robin, I'm pretty sure he went home and slept for 15 hours. I also like that Sophia Coppola kept the script close to the novel, written by Jeffrey Eugenides. Here's why:

"What lingered after them was not life, but the most trivial list of mundane facts: a clock ticking on a wall, a room dim at noon, and the outrageousness of a human being thinking only of herself. "









"We would never be sure of the sequence of events. We argue about it still. "




"When she jumped, she probably thought she could fly."

Warpaint

"Billie Holiday"

Usually, I detest slow melodies...but this one has stabbed at my core.
Eerie

OH, and lets take a moment to remember the beautiful Marilyns of our world. Life is not the same without them. Sad.

Daul Kim: 1989-2009

R.I.P. 20.11.2009
What a doll...

All the Good Ones Are Gone

I'm a chick and I'm not even out of my teens yet, so god dammit I'm going to fantasize about one dreamboat. He's gone, as we all know, but that doesn't mean his memory doesn't elude us. River Phoenix, it seems, was manifested from a perfect dream I had in wonderland.



Lets face it, people who die young have this romanticism about them and their lives are kind of glorified. In reality, the kid was sick and lonely. He had a deep whole that he filled with drugs. He lived in secrets that would eventually kill him. It sucks in so many ways. It happens too often and there is nothing romantic about it.

He was perfect to me though.






River's last photoshoot, in 1993. Photographed by Michael Tighe.